Grace's Four Months

I am an ugly fat piece of shit.

Mon, 03 Sep 2012 19:14:00 -0400

I will have that body. I WILL BE SKINNY.

Sat, 16 Jun 2012 18:36:55 -0400

I will have that body. I WILL BE SKINNY.

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Fri, 15 Jun 2012 17:53:21 -0400

Wow. I lost. I lost the game. My four months turned into 3, then 2, then 1, now I'm out of time. I feel so ashamed of myself, like I let you all down.

Tue, 12 Jun 2012 22:44:42 -0400

However, I’m still on the pursuit of weightloss. My CW is something I’m so displeased with, I gained 5 pounds, from being a lazy ass. It’s funny how it seemed like I lost the weight in a short amount of time, but it took me about 3 months to gain it. That’s better motivation for this time. I hate myself. I’m fat, lazy, unnattractive, stupid, ugly, useless, annoying, dissapointing, and undesireable. I hate myself more than I ever have before.

But I’m ready to kick my own ass. I’m readier than ever.

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Wed, 06 Jun 2012 20:50:54 -0400

^^this!

Mon, 23 Apr 2012 00:13:44 -0400

^^this!

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Sun, 22 Apr 2012 20:05:13 -0400

Just realized part of my problem is I don't have enough fitspo on my dash... Reblog if your a health blog and I'll follow you.

Sun, 22 Apr 2012 14:05:40 -0400

🍎🍉🍲🍣🍳🍆🍊🍴⚽🎾🚲

carrrrrrot: gizemandmelly: What’s your favourite part of a...

Sun, 15 Apr 2012 05:15:37 -0400

carrrrrrot:

gizemandmelly:

What’s your favourite part of a girls body?

Well, a flat, smooth stomach is always nice.

Okay guys, I’m screwed!

Time to hit the gym. At least thats an excuse for me.

^i hear that sistah

I know this is shitty to use as thinspo, but I can’t help it. Time to move my ass. Or I guess, abs that I don’t have… yet.

sorry I’ve been gone so long. I’ve been thinking a...

Sun, 15 Apr 2012 05:02:57 -0400

sorry I’ve been gone so long. I’ve been thinking a lot lately. about life and other things. I’m starting to just give up. luckily after a hefty gym session tonight I feel recharged enough to finally get down to my UGW.

Sorry that I’m being a lazy fuck head, but I swear to god, no more. Starting NOW

healthlustre: YUM Things really can be healthy and...

Mon, 02 Apr 2012 08:00:05 -0400

healthlustre:

YUM

Things really can be healthy and delicious… Look at that!

iwillicaniam: Truth! Strong is the new skinny xxx

Sun, 01 Apr 2012 17:53:12 -0400

iwillicaniam:

Truth! Strong is the new skinny xxx

I wanna be one of the cute girls that struts around on the beach...

Sun, 01 Apr 2012 16:05:05 -0400

I wanna be one of the cute girls that struts around on the beach and gets guys to ask for their number :(

superhalfme: Part of my breakfast. :)

Sun, 01 Apr 2012 13:14:11 -0400

superhalfme:

Part of my breakfast. :)

I love that bikini. That body will be mine. I will look like...

Sun, 01 Apr 2012 13:11:47 -0400

I love that bikini.

That body will be mine. I will look like that. It will be tough. But I’ll do it. I can do it.

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Thu, 22 Mar 2012 17:42:32 -0400

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Thu, 22 Mar 2012 17:25:26 -0400

I don’t have a healthy mind right now. Shit. I even tried...

Thu, 22 Mar 2012 16:49:37 -0400

I don’t have a healthy mind right now. Shit. I even tried to get a thinspo partner and that was a bust. A thinspo partner is not what I need. Sorry if I kinda let down some of you who were so kind to message me. I to get back into the swing of things.

I have totally lost focus. I don’t even remember what happened, but my “four months” have quickly dissolved into one, and I have only spent one of those months wisely. I made January my bitch. Then February made me it’s bitch. And March slowly did the same. I have ONE MONTH to get the bikini body I want. ONE MONTH to lose 20 pounds. Seeing as that may be physically impossible, I’m extending my deadline to May. May isn’t really bikini season anyway, so I should be ok. Two months is what I really need to get my mind in the right place, and then from there on I will eat healthy foods and continue to exercise as part of my daily routine. But I have to stick it out for two months, hardcore like I did in January, so I can be fit. I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry to everyone. I really let you down, and I started by letting myself down. I mean, I used to say things like “Oh we all have slip ups, but I’ll never give up!” and then I let two months get away from me. That’s not a slip up. That’s quitting. But I still haven’t completely 100% thrown in the towel, so you can count on me not to be done.

Where I went wrong:

Logging my food every single day was really a hassle. Even though I get on tumblr everyday, posting the calories of everything was really a chore. I couldn’t keep up. And getting behind was a nightmare, so I ended up lying about half of the stuff I ate. Dearest followers… If I ever seem like I’m off track, or not doing what I’m supposed to, PLEASE message me and tell be to stop fucking around. For example, if I keep posting pictures of cake and shit on my personal blog, gracevision.tumblr.com, then let me know I’m being a stupid cow that needs to put down the shamrock shakes and pick up the weights.

It’s really up to me though. You can’t control what goes in my mouth, so I have to be motivated and willing to change my body and mind for the better.

I just want to be thin. I just want to be hot. I just want to feel beautiful.

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Thu, 22 Mar 2012 16:24:38 -0400

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Thu, 22 Mar 2012 16:24:09 -0400